i had such a surprisingly lovely day. yesterday, i was praying that i wouldn’t wake up this morning as i really didn’t want to go to school. then this morning i woke up and told mum i had a sore throat (which was true, but i just needed a drink i was fine) and she asked me if i wanted to have the day off, but i just felt really bad for doing that because it really wasn’t that bad, it just felt kind of dry, so i told her i’d be fine. then when i got out of the car to go to school, i almost started crying, i just really didn’t want to go. but i composed myself and just went to the change rooms as i had sport for the first two periods. we did dancing and we have to be parted as boy, girl. i didn’t really care who i went with because i don’t really like anyone so i knew it wouldn’t matter, i just really didn’t want to do it because of how unco i am. so anyways, i got partnered with this guy who i dont really like, but he was good, so that helped, anyways, i was still regretting that i went to school and then at recess, i got my book and went to go sit down and read it, but then my friend follows me and so i didn’t get much reading done because i was talking to him. then i had history which was alright because i sat next to him and we just talked. then i had commerce which i sat by myself at the back of the classroom and one of my ‘friends’ said ha, look at how lonered steph is and i said well, i’d rather sit by myself than sit next to one of you faggots, and i got some more reading done. then at lunch, i was prepared to sit by myself again, until my friend asked me to go with him to student reception which i wasn’t going to do, but i went anyways, then we went up to the top of the school and just laid down on the grass and watched the clouds go by. this was the part of my day that was surprisingly lovely. all i could think about was that if there was ever a moment in time to freeze, it would be then. life was okay. we just laid there in silence, talking a bit about just little things and everything was great. then i had maths and i understood the work so easily and i finished the homework in class which is always fantastic, then i had english and couldn’t wait to go home. after school, i had a caramel latte and it was fabulous! i’m greatful that i did go to school today. i’m wondering if tomorrow will be the same. i sure do hope so.